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Friday, March 2, 2012
Setelah kesulitan akan ada kemudahan dan Vice Versa
Pagi ini gw niatnya mau ke Maranatha (lagi), buat tes lamaran kerja (lagi). pas gw lagi siap-siap pake jilbab, sekitaran jam setengah 8, si putih hape gw tiba-tiba berbunyi. dan olalala ~ gw dapet sms dari penguji proposal skripsi klo beliau hari ini bisa nguji gw. jam 9 sodara-sodara! dan di rumah beliau di Cijerah sana! coba bayangkan! gw langsung screaming heboh.
setelah buru-buru beresin penampilan, tas dan segala macem (termasuk heboh nge-sms-in Ami) gw berangkat. jantungan, mau nangis, marah, sampe takut (karena bahannya ga terlalu gw kuasai). nge-print power point trus ke R6 buat ambil form penilaian. abis itu gw langsung ke Setiabudhi nyari taksi, karena gw ga tau sama sekali daerah rumahnya si Bapak.
dan setelah sampai sana, jeng jeng. gw cuma duduk, disuruh bapaknya ngisi form penilaian (yang harusnya diisi sendiri oleh beliau) dengerin bapaknya ngomong dan ... selesai! gw ga ada di tanya-tanya sama sekali.
gw ga tahu itu untung apa buntung. maksudnya, iya gw enak ga usah ditanya-tanya ama bapaknya. tapi ga assyik juga ga ada acara bercerita tentang skripsi gw.
tapi itu gw anggap sebagai 'kemudahan' gw setelah 'kesusahan' yang mendadak disuruh dateng, batal tes dan segala macam lainnya.
sebenarnya dari dulu gw uda sering denger yang namanya 'setelah kesulitan akan ada kemudahan'. dan udah lama juga nyadar dan ngalaminnya. cuma sekarang aja baru pengin di tulis :p
semacam dulu gw susah-susah ngurusin magang gw, tetiba ada nyokap Della yang nolongin + nikmatnya gw magang di rumah. semacam gw capek-capek ngerjain bab II trus besoknya waktu bimbingan langsung di acc. semacam gw capek-capek nyebar lebih dari 100 kuesioner dan ternyata sama pembimbing di reduce jadi 100, ga jadi 300.
gw sadar hal yang sebaliknya juga berlaku, bahwa setelah kemudahan akan ada kesulitan berikutnya.
semacam ketika gw kemaren dengan santainya 3 minggu libur mengabaikan proposal dan menikmati kemalasan gw dan kemudahan lainnya, maka berikutnya adalah kesusahan, yaitu gw ga bisa menuhin tenggat waktu skripsi dan wisuda gw batal Mei tapi November.
dan kemudian gw jadi ngecewain bokap nyokap gw :(
setelah buru-buru beresin penampilan, tas dan segala macem (termasuk heboh nge-sms-in Ami) gw berangkat. jantungan, mau nangis, marah, sampe takut (karena bahannya ga terlalu gw kuasai). nge-print power point trus ke R6 buat ambil form penilaian. abis itu gw langsung ke Setiabudhi nyari taksi, karena gw ga tau sama sekali daerah rumahnya si Bapak.
dan setelah sampai sana, jeng jeng. gw cuma duduk, disuruh bapaknya ngisi form penilaian (yang harusnya diisi sendiri oleh beliau) dengerin bapaknya ngomong dan ... selesai! gw ga ada di tanya-tanya sama sekali.
gw ga tahu itu untung apa buntung. maksudnya, iya gw enak ga usah ditanya-tanya ama bapaknya. tapi ga assyik juga ga ada acara bercerita tentang skripsi gw.
tapi itu gw anggap sebagai 'kemudahan' gw setelah 'kesusahan' yang mendadak disuruh dateng, batal tes dan segala macam lainnya.
sebenarnya dari dulu gw uda sering denger yang namanya 'setelah kesulitan akan ada kemudahan'. dan udah lama juga nyadar dan ngalaminnya. cuma sekarang aja baru pengin di tulis :p
semacam dulu gw susah-susah ngurusin magang gw, tetiba ada nyokap Della yang nolongin + nikmatnya gw magang di rumah. semacam gw capek-capek ngerjain bab II trus besoknya waktu bimbingan langsung di acc. semacam gw capek-capek nyebar lebih dari 100 kuesioner dan ternyata sama pembimbing di reduce jadi 100, ga jadi 300.
gw sadar hal yang sebaliknya juga berlaku, bahwa setelah kemudahan akan ada kesulitan berikutnya.
semacam ketika gw kemaren dengan santainya 3 minggu libur mengabaikan proposal dan menikmati kemalasan gw dan kemudahan lainnya, maka berikutnya adalah kesusahan, yaitu gw ga bisa menuhin tenggat waktu skripsi dan wisuda gw batal Mei tapi November.
dan kemudian gw jadi ngecewain bokap nyokap gw :(
Katakan itu pada Papaku
Senin kemarin gw dan Ami dateng ke Maranatha, mau liat job fair yang ada di sana. yah, klo istilah di sana namanya Maranatha Career Day 2012. kita dateng barengan ama bli-bli Bali, Oka, Alan, Adi, dan Arya (tanya kenapa nama mereka awalan huruf A semua), jadi judlnya 'nebengin bli-bli Bali'
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oke, openingnya lalala banget.
Singkat cerita, setelah nerima penjelasan dari beberapa panitia gw dan Ami mutusin untuk ngelamar ke beberapa perusahaan. Sebut saja PT. Astra Honda Motor, PANIN Bank, DJARUM dan BCA (itumah uda nama asli, Ika. ga perlu pake kalimat sebut saja namanya -_-). Ah, dan lupakan penjelesan paling heboh dari mas panitia Bank Permata yang kita kasih nama Aa' Which is.
Terus harus Kamis kemaren gw ama Ami ikut tes untuk Astra. dari jam 9-an ampe jam 12 lewat. tesnya adalah psikotes. dan sumpah ga buang soal psikotesnya ama waktu gw masuk SMA dulu. dan ini nih salah satu alasan kenapa gw seneng pas dulu masuk SMA ada tes beginian. gw jadi uda ada gambaran dan uda biasa.
Nah, pas jam 1 siangnya, langsung diumumin untuk yang lolos tes 1. Alhamdulillah gw masuk, tapi sayangnya Ami ga. maaf ya, Ami :( dan gw langsung ngikutin untuk tes 2. Namanya sih Running Tes (gw inget Running Man jadinya) tapi tetep aja psikotes gitu, cuma tingkat yang lebih susah. Trus ambil ngerjain running tes itu kita dipanggilin buat interview. nah ini dia yang mau gw ceritain.
Klo ada yang ngerasa takut dengan yang namanya interview, gw saranin untuk berubah pikiran. ga susah koq, bener deh. kita cuma dipancing dengan beberapa pertanyaan, trus secara ga sadar kita malah jadi dengan senang hati untuk menceritakan diri kita.Udah gitu, mungkin karena yang wawancara adalah psikolog, merekanya jadi tahu gimana ngebuat kita nyaman untuk bercerita.
Pertanyaan yang diajuin ke gw itu seputar kuliah. Tentang gimana gw bisa dapet IPK yang lumayan tinggi itu (gw ngaku deh, gw agak sedikit bohong untuk ngejawab ini. bilang klo gw suka ngulang pelajaran, padahal ga juga :p). Trus disuruh cerita tentang skripsi gw (ini juga agak bohong. karena sebenarnya gw belum ngambil kesimpulan). dan hal-hal lainnya yang kita tuliskan di Formulir Lamaran Kerja (ini dikasih ama mereka).
Berawal dari beliau (yang nge-wawancara gw) yang nanya tentang Houkiboshi trus tentang Jejepangan gw (kalian harus tahu klo gw paling suka disuruh cerita tentang hal ini) lalu berlanjut dengan keinginan gw yang pengin kerja di dunia TV, tentang gw pengin kuliah di IKJ, dengan betapa sukanya gw bikin majalah dan lainnya.
trus beliau nanya "kenapa ga ngambil broadcast aja"
gw menjawab "tadinya saya pengin kuliah di IKJ, bu. pokonya yang berkaitan dengan film, sutradara, script writer, yang gitu-gitulah. tapi waktu dulu bilang ke Papa, beliau ngomong 'mau makan apa kamu, nak?'"
dan beliau tertawa dengan puasnya.
singkat cerita, setelah nanya-nanya hal lainnya di ujung wawancara si ibu ngomong ke gw "kamu itu kurang cocok di perusahaan ini. cocoknya kerja di media, di TV"
oh, ibu! coba katakan itu pada papaku. agar beliau tau apa mauku apa inginku (bahasanya lebay).
ya gitu deh jadinya. tes hari itu berakhir dengan wawancara dan gw pulang dengan perut kelaparan. pengumuman untu gw bisa ikut tes selanjutnya atau ga baru dikasih tahu 2 minggu lagi. doain ya...
\o/
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oke, openingnya lalala banget.
Singkat cerita, setelah nerima penjelasan dari beberapa panitia gw dan Ami mutusin untuk ngelamar ke beberapa perusahaan. Sebut saja PT. Astra Honda Motor, PANIN Bank, DJARUM dan BCA (itumah uda nama asli, Ika. ga perlu pake kalimat sebut saja namanya -_-). Ah, dan lupakan penjelesan paling heboh dari mas panitia Bank Permata yang kita kasih nama Aa' Which is.
Terus harus Kamis kemaren gw ama Ami ikut tes untuk Astra. dari jam 9-an ampe jam 12 lewat. tesnya adalah psikotes. dan sumpah ga buang soal psikotesnya ama waktu gw masuk SMA dulu. dan ini nih salah satu alasan kenapa gw seneng pas dulu masuk SMA ada tes beginian. gw jadi uda ada gambaran dan uda biasa.
Nah, pas jam 1 siangnya, langsung diumumin untuk yang lolos tes 1. Alhamdulillah gw masuk, tapi sayangnya Ami ga. maaf ya, Ami :( dan gw langsung ngikutin untuk tes 2. Namanya sih Running Tes (gw inget Running Man jadinya) tapi tetep aja psikotes gitu, cuma tingkat yang lebih susah. Trus ambil ngerjain running tes itu kita dipanggilin buat interview. nah ini dia yang mau gw ceritain.
Klo ada yang ngerasa takut dengan yang namanya interview, gw saranin untuk berubah pikiran. ga susah koq, bener deh. kita cuma dipancing dengan beberapa pertanyaan, trus secara ga sadar kita malah jadi dengan senang hati untuk menceritakan diri kita.Udah gitu, mungkin karena yang wawancara adalah psikolog, merekanya jadi tahu gimana ngebuat kita nyaman untuk bercerita.
Pertanyaan yang diajuin ke gw itu seputar kuliah. Tentang gimana gw bisa dapet IPK yang lumayan tinggi itu (gw ngaku deh, gw agak sedikit bohong untuk ngejawab ini. bilang klo gw suka ngulang pelajaran, padahal ga juga :p). Trus disuruh cerita tentang skripsi gw (ini juga agak bohong. karena sebenarnya gw belum ngambil kesimpulan). dan hal-hal lainnya yang kita tuliskan di Formulir Lamaran Kerja (ini dikasih ama mereka).
Berawal dari beliau (yang nge-wawancara gw) yang nanya tentang Houkiboshi trus tentang Jejepangan gw (kalian harus tahu klo gw paling suka disuruh cerita tentang hal ini) lalu berlanjut dengan keinginan gw yang pengin kerja di dunia TV, tentang gw pengin kuliah di IKJ, dengan betapa sukanya gw bikin majalah dan lainnya.
trus beliau nanya "kenapa ga ngambil broadcast aja"
gw menjawab "tadinya saya pengin kuliah di IKJ, bu. pokonya yang berkaitan dengan film, sutradara, script writer, yang gitu-gitulah. tapi waktu dulu bilang ke Papa, beliau ngomong 'mau makan apa kamu, nak?'"
dan beliau tertawa dengan puasnya.
singkat cerita, setelah nanya-nanya hal lainnya di ujung wawancara si ibu ngomong ke gw "kamu itu kurang cocok di perusahaan ini. cocoknya kerja di media, di TV"
oh, ibu! coba katakan itu pada papaku. agar beliau tau apa mauku apa inginku (bahasanya lebay).
ya gitu deh jadinya. tes hari itu berakhir dengan wawancara dan gw pulang dengan perut kelaparan. pengumuman untu gw bisa ikut tes selanjutnya atau ga baru dikasih tahu 2 minggu lagi. doain ya...
\o/
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
dear siti karina tarigan,
stop looking down on yourself. you're great, you know. you care for your friend, you have your own creativity, you are strong, you maybe aren't pretty but you are beautiful in your own way. so why you live in such a 'dark' world nowaday, hm?
it's okay to feel weak. hug someone if you need it. bang della's room if you feel lonely, she'll welcome you. call you friend or text at least. do not drown yourself in you dongbang world. they're exist but not in your world.
you could get back into 'ika' or 'sitkar' or 'omos' or 'karina' or maybe no. it's okay. as long as you are still siti karina tarigan.
look for your own dream, it's not late at all. you can do whatever you want to do. dance as much as you want. write as long as your muse. be happy!
if you really believe that everybody has their own way to love other people, you might know that there will always someone, some people that love you.
and don't worry, your future hubby is in his way. maybe he isn't someone that you want, but believe that Allah gives what you need.
cheer up, okay? everything will be okay in the end. and i love you..
sincerely, the hidden siti karina tarigan
stop looking down on yourself. you're great, you know. you care for your friend, you have your own creativity, you are strong, you maybe aren't pretty but you are beautiful in your own way. so why you live in such a 'dark' world nowaday, hm?
it's okay to feel weak. hug someone if you need it. bang della's room if you feel lonely, she'll welcome you. call you friend or text at least. do not drown yourself in you dongbang world. they're exist but not in your world.
you could get back into 'ika' or 'sitkar' or 'omos' or 'karina' or maybe no. it's okay. as long as you are still siti karina tarigan.
look for your own dream, it's not late at all. you can do whatever you want to do. dance as much as you want. write as long as your muse. be happy!
if you really believe that everybody has their own way to love other people, you might know that there will always someone, some people that love you.
and don't worry, your future hubby is in his way. maybe he isn't someone that you want, but believe that Allah gives what you need.
cheer up, okay? everything will be okay in the end. and i love you..
sincerely, the hidden siti karina tarigan
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
vice versa
gw sendiri sebenarnya juga jarang ngomong dan berhubungan ama Randy, orang yang gw claim sebagai teman paling lama, sahabat yang ngerti gw.
trus kenapa gw harus sebegitu sedihnya ketika gape ga mau lagi ngomong dan berhubungan ama gw?
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mungkin karena biasanya gw lah yang nyuekin orang, bukan sebaliknya.
trus kenapa gw harus sebegitu sedihnya ketika gape ga mau lagi ngomong dan berhubungan ama gw?
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mungkin karena biasanya gw lah yang nyuekin orang, bukan sebaliknya.
Monday, January 9, 2012
page 9 of 366
am I a good daughter who always follow what my dad told me to
or
am I too lazy to catch my own dream?
or
am I too lazy to catch my own dream?
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
random
sedang mood untuk nulis. hehe. ehm, mau nulis random ajalah ya..
gw lagi di Waddaddah, cafe kecil di sebelah Gegerkalong Asri Hotel. tempatnya pewe. aa'nya baiiiiiikkkk banget. teh susu ama kopi susunya enak. kentang gorengnya juga. tapi roti bakarnya bukan tipe mulut gw, rasanya aneh. dan yang jelas, wifinya muanteeeep banget! 10 menit lagi semua donlotan COO gw yang berjumlah hampir 2 GB beres dan gw cukup duduk 3 jam /senyum manis.
ehm, gw tadi abis dari dakol. ngerjain skripsi. bab 2 beres. bab 3 tinggal setengah. mudahan ntar malam ada niat ngerjain trus bab 3 bisa beres, trus besoknya lagi bisa bimbingan. mudahan lagi bisa langsung dikumpul. amiiiinnn...
senin depan uda uas tapi gw belum belajar. hehe. mungkin karena uda semester akhir jadi uda berasa biasa ama ujian. dan yaaahhhh, begitulah.
apalagi yaaa???
gebetan aing tambah cakep euy! hahaha. beneran deh. I don't remember he growing up that handsomely. I want to tell Gape, but yo know abt it :|
masih suka inget rava. inget doang tapi.
masih suka ngayal ga jelas.
ah, belakangan ini cuma makan sehari sekali. tiba2 pengin punya berat badan 45kg. bisa ga ya? bisalah ya...
/berusaha menghabiskan roti yang tidak sesuai selera gw ini >.<
udah ah....
gw lagi di Waddaddah, cafe kecil di sebelah Gegerkalong Asri Hotel. tempatnya pewe. aa'nya baiiiiiikkkk banget. teh susu ama kopi susunya enak. kentang gorengnya juga. tapi roti bakarnya bukan tipe mulut gw, rasanya aneh. dan yang jelas, wifinya muanteeeep banget! 10 menit lagi semua donlotan COO gw yang berjumlah hampir 2 GB beres dan gw cukup duduk 3 jam /senyum manis.
ehm, gw tadi abis dari dakol. ngerjain skripsi. bab 2 beres. bab 3 tinggal setengah. mudahan ntar malam ada niat ngerjain trus bab 3 bisa beres, trus besoknya lagi bisa bimbingan. mudahan lagi bisa langsung dikumpul. amiiiinnn...
senin depan uda uas tapi gw belum belajar. hehe. mungkin karena uda semester akhir jadi uda berasa biasa ama ujian. dan yaaahhhh, begitulah.
apalagi yaaa???
gebetan aing tambah cakep euy! hahaha. beneran deh. I don't remember he growing up that handsomely. I want to tell Gape, but yo know abt it :|
masih suka inget rava. inget doang tapi.
masih suka ngayal ga jelas.
ah, belakangan ini cuma makan sehari sekali. tiba2 pengin punya berat badan 45kg. bisa ga ya? bisalah ya...
/berusaha menghabiskan roti yang tidak sesuai selera gw ini >.<
udah ah....
_naput
let me talk about _naput, one of my bestie on twitter.
1. I called her 'emak'.
want me to tell you why? okay here's the story. first, idk but I called papa. so when you see me tweet smth abt papa, it's not my real father but yunho. second, I called every yunho bias in my tlist with mama, mommy, eomma, or smth lke that. third, _naput is yunho bias. so, you know it. but as much as I have another 'mother' she's the only one that close to me.
2. she's cute.
I mean it! even I haven't meet her, just look at her avatar you know.
3. the way she tweets
I totally love it. idk, but the way she said or think or antyhing is cute and funny and , I've said it, I love it. oftenly (?) it's exactly what's on my mind.
4. teenager
she's younger than me. she's 95' lines. too young, rite? but she doesn't think like other teenager. jarang galau dan jarang ngomongin cinta or smth like that. she just talked abt korean, yunho and hoya related.
5. the ways she called me
when she called 'nak' I'll instantly smile. it feels like we really family.
you can follow her on @_naput ^^
1. I called her 'emak'.
want me to tell you why? okay here's the story. first, idk but I called papa. so when you see me tweet smth abt papa, it's not my real father but yunho. second, I called every yunho bias in my tlist with mama, mommy, eomma, or smth lke that. third, _naput is yunho bias. so, you know it. but as much as I have another 'mother' she's the only one that close to me.
2. she's cute.
I mean it! even I haven't meet her, just look at her avatar you know.
3. the way she tweets
I totally love it. idk, but the way she said or think or antyhing is cute and funny and , I've said it, I love it. oftenly (?) it's exactly what's on my mind.
4. teenager
she's younger than me. she's 95' lines. too young, rite? but she doesn't think like other teenager. jarang galau dan jarang ngomongin cinta or smth like that. she just talked abt korean, yunho and hoya related.
5. the ways she called me
when she called 'nak' I'll instantly smile. it feels like we really family.
you can follow her on @_naput ^^
page 3 of 366
page 3 of 366
there's no more "dit, kata gape..." or "pe, kata adit..."
they should talk to each other.
there's no more "dit, kata gape..." or "pe, kata adit..."
they should talk to each other.
me and gape?
ah, we just have that silent-mode-on friendship. it's not permanent, I believe (and I hope).
^^
too early for april mop
I got a text yesterday from Julio. it said " temen2 Julio, ini orang tua Julio. Julio sudah pergi meninggalkan kita semua. saya mita maaf sebesar besarnya kalau dia pernah buat salah, atau salah bicara. tadi malam jam 22.30 pagi dia pergi....."
T___________________________________________________________________T
I just woke up when I received that message. I was crying instantly. I meant, it's Julio, my opa and my (if only I can say best) friend. I was crying like no end.
In my head, every memories about him played like a movie.
... when we made welly's birthday present, round a round school and dorm just to got the best leave.
... when he played the piano and guitar for that present, but instantly it was for me when I said I want someone played for me.
... when he almost held me and swang me around when I told him that I'll go to Japan.
... when he held my hand when we went to cinema, just because we late and the light has turned off.
... when he bought me JCo. exactly everytime we went to Sun Plaza.
... when he accompany me when I was doing my assignments.
... when he listened my whiny - whiny voices.
and then I remembered that I kind of ignored him lately, felt annoying with his attitude. I felt 'bersalah' (I forgot the word suddenly).
T_______________________________________________________________T
then I replied the text. "ini ga bohong kan?"
and ".... di jemput pilot keliling dunia mau nyari indomie rasa babi panggang. wkwkwkwkwwkwk. ini ceriaku apa ceritamu? hahahahaha. peace.."
I was like, eh o.O
aaaahhhhh, juliooooooooo! T___________T
he was just kidding and I have took it seriously. hah! I hate you! T___T
don't play about dead with me, okay. I cant handle it. Agape only ignored me and it feels like I'm dying. and talk about dead only make me really die..
love your friend
T___________________________________________________________________T
I just woke up when I received that message. I was crying instantly. I meant, it's Julio, my opa and my (if only I can say best) friend. I was crying like no end.
In my head, every memories about him played like a movie.
... when we made welly's birthday present, round a round school and dorm just to got the best leave.
... when he played the piano and guitar for that present, but instantly it was for me when I said I want someone played for me.
... when he almost held me and swang me around when I told him that I'll go to Japan.
... when he held my hand when we went to cinema, just because we late and the light has turned off.
... when he bought me JCo. exactly everytime we went to Sun Plaza.
... when he accompany me when I was doing my assignments.
... when he listened my whiny - whiny voices.
and then I remembered that I kind of ignored him lately, felt annoying with his attitude. I felt 'bersalah' (I forgot the word suddenly).
T_______________________________________________________________T
then I replied the text. "ini ga bohong kan?"
and ".... di jemput pilot keliling dunia mau nyari indomie rasa babi panggang. wkwkwkwkwwkwk. ini ceriaku apa ceritamu? hahahahaha. peace.."
I was like, eh o.O
aaaahhhhh, juliooooooooo! T___________T
he was just kidding and I have took it seriously. hah! I hate you! T___T
don't play about dead with me, okay. I cant handle it. Agape only ignored me and it feels like I'm dying. and talk about dead only make me really die..
love your friend
Thursday, December 22, 2011
he is
Gape itu ...
pengganti kakak yang ilang
sebagai kembaran yang selalu gw pengin
forever soulmate
miss you so much, dear c:
pengganti kakak yang ilang
seorang abang yang ga pernah gw punya
sebagai kembaran yang selalu gw pengin
different kind of lover
forever soulmate
miss you so much, dear c:
Happy Mother's day
exactly one second after I posted my post, I remembered that It has 22nd of December, Mother's Day. So here it is, a post for my mom.
She's 54 y.o this year. old yes but she's still beautiful. she's tall, white, egg-shape-look face, big teeth (dad always make fun of this) and lovely.
mom's the only one say yes to me. she never say no to me. always support me for whatever decision I made. she always there when I made mistake from that decision.
she teached me a lot of things. love, friendship, family, enemy, everything.
/my muse is gone.
anyway, Happy Mother's Day, mom! I reeeeeally love you, trust me. I'll make you proud. Thanks for all of your support for me till now. I'll bring you a handsome son-in-law.
Muaaaach :*
She's 54 y.o this year. old yes but she's still beautiful. she's tall, white, egg-shape-look face, big teeth (dad always make fun of this) and lovely.
mom's the only one say yes to me. she never say no to me. always support me for whatever decision I made. she always there when I made mistake from that decision.
she teached me a lot of things. love, friendship, family, enemy, everything.
/my muse is gone.
anyway, Happy Mother's Day, mom! I reeeeeally love you, trust me. I'll make you proud. Thanks for all of your support for me till now. I'll bring you a handsome son-in-law.
Muaaaach :*
22nd of December
The time I feel like holding a stone is the time that I'm sure I'll get a fever. Exactly like how I feel now. I hope I don't get sick. not now. not when I have a lot of stuff to do.
Didn't got any progress with my skripsi. But I only have a paragraph to change and my first chap will done. yaiy! but still a lng way to finish it. I hope I can catch the deadline.
I can't sleep. or maybe not. My bed got monopolized by chunfin. she's cute when sleeping. curl up in a ball like she feels cold. but when I trow a blanket over her, she'll just hold it like a pillow. somehow, she reminds me of Welly, my roommate. Welly will also curl up in a ball when she's sleeping, but she'll curl up more when I trow a blanket. oh, how I miss to sleep next to Welly. She's warm and has that baby's scent. really love to sleep next to her.
hm, I have to go to Jakarta, my unfavorite city, this evening. have to meet with my family. tbh, it's dad who has some business there, but mom and sisters decided to follow him. and they told me to join them. so yeah. and and and my brother-cousin, Dedi, have this 'masuk rumah baru' party. so I have to come. my family will follow me back to Bandung next Tuesday btw. Idk if I have to happy or smth.
Della and Emir finally dating. yaiy! congratz my sister. Sorry I can't joint you last Sunday night. long last yaaa.
Infinite's Lately is love. Sungjong made the opening, not Myungsoo. and Sunggyu is qt while Sungyeol is dorky, as always. and Hoya, that papi of mine, is cool. and give me a father feeling. Dongwoo, ehm, no ceomment. Idk, he's funny but sometimes I can't figure it. and Woohyun, asdfghjkl, I really have to learn to love this guy. he's sooooo lovely, k. and when he was dancing Before he Dawn to that Japanese kid is quuuuuute.
but in Christmas dinner's scene, wae I have to imagined it's TVXQ's members in that table and eating and chatting and laughing and smiling so happily like this lawsuit never happened? what the hell.
well, happy end year everyone. cheers c:
ps: I wrote the whole post Englishly. point me the grammar error, please?
Didn't got any progress with my skripsi. But I only have a paragraph to change and my first chap will done. yaiy! but still a lng way to finish it. I hope I can catch the deadline.
I can't sleep. or maybe not. My bed got monopolized by chunfin. she's cute when sleeping. curl up in a ball like she feels cold. but when I trow a blanket over her, she'll just hold it like a pillow. somehow, she reminds me of Welly, my roommate. Welly will also curl up in a ball when she's sleeping, but she'll curl up more when I trow a blanket. oh, how I miss to sleep next to Welly. She's warm and has that baby's scent. really love to sleep next to her.
hm, I have to go to Jakarta, my unfavorite city, this evening. have to meet with my family. tbh, it's dad who has some business there, but mom and sisters decided to follow him. and they told me to join them. so yeah. and and and my brother-cousin, Dedi, have this 'masuk rumah baru' party. so I have to come. my family will follow me back to Bandung next Tuesday btw. Idk if I have to happy or smth.
Della and Emir finally dating. yaiy! congratz my sister. Sorry I can't joint you last Sunday night. long last yaaa.
Infinite's Lately is love. Sungjong made the opening, not Myungsoo. and Sunggyu is qt while Sungyeol is dorky, as always. and Hoya, that papi of mine, is cool. and give me a father feeling. Dongwoo, ehm, no ceomment. Idk, he's funny but sometimes I can't figure it. and Woohyun, asdfghjkl, I really have to learn to love this guy. he's sooooo lovely, k. and when he was dancing Before he Dawn to that Japanese kid is quuuuuute.
but in Christmas dinner's scene, wae I have to imagined it's TVXQ's members in that table and eating and chatting and laughing and smiling so happily like this lawsuit never happened? what the hell.
well, happy end year everyone. cheers c:
ps: I wrote the whole post Englishly. point me the grammar error, please?
Friday, December 16, 2011
16th
klo orang sering ga bisa mikir atau badmood atau lemes karena kurang/ga tidur, maka gw adalah kebalikannya. otak gw lancar mamen! pencerahan untuk latar belakang skripsi langsung dateng. mood gw juga bagus, seneng gitu rasanya. trus gw ga lemes, bahkan ga lapar. aneh ya? berarti permasalahan gw selama ini, badmood-lemes-males, mungkin justru karena gw kebanyakan tidur.
besoknya, karena gw ga enak hati ama badan, jadilah gw tidur pas siangnya. dari jam 1 ampe jam 6! pas adzam maghrib. bukan sengaja ninggalin ashar, tapi alarm yang disetel ga kedengeran. dan abis bangun itu, gw demam. elah dasar ni badan, reaksinya lambat =))
and I just realized how unproductive I am this year. 1 post per month. omg /sigh
dulu asa hal-hal simple dan sepele dan ga penting dan kacau juga gw tulis aja. sekarang ga bisaaaa. suka mikir apakah gw pantas menuliskannya dan membiarkan orang-orang untuk membacanya. merelakan orang-orang men-judge berdasarkan tulisan gw. padahal kan ga gitu juga ya?
skripsi gw alhamdulillah uda mulai. masih suka males tapi sehari minimal dipegang. mudah-mudahan mei bisa wisuda. amiiin.
trussss... ah, Julio is back. suddenly he texted me and said something fluff and that whiny-whiny things. aigoo. was he like that before, huh? bcs, idk. i found it's kinda ... annoying? padahal dulu kayaknya biasa-biasa aja gw ngadapin yang begitu. maybe, just maybe, because he has gone too long. he wasn't there when I need him. he ignored my text, my call, and my wall. so, when I changed and learn to live without him, don't blame me if I can't give you the same responses as before. and he is my friend, my opa. not ex or bf.
ciao :)
besoknya, karena gw ga enak hati ama badan, jadilah gw tidur pas siangnya. dari jam 1 ampe jam 6! pas adzam maghrib. bukan sengaja ninggalin ashar, tapi alarm yang disetel ga kedengeran. dan abis bangun itu, gw demam. elah dasar ni badan, reaksinya lambat =))
and I just realized how unproductive I am this year. 1 post per month. omg /sigh
dulu asa hal-hal simple dan sepele dan ga penting dan kacau juga gw tulis aja. sekarang ga bisaaaa. suka mikir apakah gw pantas menuliskannya dan membiarkan orang-orang untuk membacanya. merelakan orang-orang men-judge berdasarkan tulisan gw. padahal kan ga gitu juga ya?
skripsi gw alhamdulillah uda mulai. masih suka males tapi sehari minimal dipegang. mudah-mudahan mei bisa wisuda. amiiin.
trussss... ah, Julio is back. suddenly he texted me and said something fluff and that whiny-whiny things. aigoo. was he like that before, huh? bcs, idk. i found it's kinda ... annoying? padahal dulu kayaknya biasa-biasa aja gw ngadapin yang begitu. maybe, just maybe, because he has gone too long. he wasn't there when I need him. he ignored my text, my call, and my wall. so, when I changed and learn to live without him, don't blame me if I can't give you the same responses as before. and he is my friend, my opa. not ex or bf.
ciao :)
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Saturday, October 15, 2011
Talking to The @mjjeje
I tell him almost everything that happened in my daily life.
From something important to unimportant.
From something plotly to randomly.
Though...
I know he didn't understand what I said.
He didn't know what it means.
He wouldn't reply me.
But I know he reads it, every single I tweets that I sent.
I know he 'hears' me.
And he wouldn't judge me.
The fact he would never reply me is something that I love.
p.s : judulnya terinspirasi dari FF berjudul 'Talking to The Moon'
From something important to unimportant.
From something plotly to randomly.
Though...
I know he didn't understand what I said.
He didn't know what it means.
He wouldn't reply me.
But I know he reads it, every single I tweets that I sent.
I know he 'hears' me.
And he wouldn't judge me.
The fact he would never reply me is something that I love.
p.s : judulnya terinspirasi dari FF berjudul 'Talking to The Moon'
Saturday, September 24, 2011
September 24th 2011
dari kemaren makanan yang gw makan selalu ga abis. nasi goreng cuma 1/3, ayam kecap cuma beres ayam ama tempenya doang. daripada buang makanan gitu terus, baiknya hari senin gw mulai puasa /nods.
sekarang gw ngerti perasaan HoMin ketika ditinggal pergi JYJ. bukan berarti JYJ bermaksud meninggalkan HoMin, mereka cuma bermaksud ninggalin SM. tapi dengan 'menyisakan' HoMin disana gw rasa HoMin, sedikit banyak, merasa ditinggalkan.
seperti yang baru gw rasain kemaren, salah satu teman gw meninggalkan gw. ga, dia bukan meninggal apa gimana, masih hidup koq. tapi berhubung katanya dia punya phobia takut ditinggalkan oleh orang lain, maka dia memutuskan untuk meninggalkan teman-temannya, sebelum dia yang ditinggalkan. salah satunya gw. tadinya sih cuma nge-block gw, nge-lock akunnya, trus nge-follow gw lagi. tapi gw ga bisa nge-follow dia. waktu gw tanya kenapa, mentionnya ga nyampe (gw cuma liat notif mention dia dari email gw). gw sms ga dibalas.
sejak itu, gw lebih sering nge-mention dia, baik secara langsung maupun ga, dan nge-sms. lebih sering daripada biasanyalah. tapi yang ada abis itu gw malah di-block, untuk selamanya. so yeah, akhirnya gw merelakan dia untuk pergi. karena itu apa yang dia penginin.
galon Aqua gw baru dateng. dan kamar gw masih berantakan. dari abis subuh udah nongkrong di atas tempat tidur sambil laptop-an. dan tugas gw ... jangan tanya. hah! jadi sekarang gw harus meninggalkan singgasana gw dan mulai bergerak. memulai sesuatu memang males.
treasure your friend and happy sunday :)
sekarang gw ngerti perasaan HoMin ketika ditinggal pergi JYJ. bukan berarti JYJ bermaksud meninggalkan HoMin, mereka cuma bermaksud ninggalin SM. tapi dengan 'menyisakan' HoMin disana gw rasa HoMin, sedikit banyak, merasa ditinggalkan.
seperti yang baru gw rasain kemaren, salah satu teman gw meninggalkan gw. ga, dia bukan meninggal apa gimana, masih hidup koq. tapi berhubung katanya dia punya phobia takut ditinggalkan oleh orang lain, maka dia memutuskan untuk meninggalkan teman-temannya, sebelum dia yang ditinggalkan. salah satunya gw. tadinya sih cuma nge-block gw, nge-lock akunnya, trus nge-follow gw lagi. tapi gw ga bisa nge-follow dia. waktu gw tanya kenapa, mentionnya ga nyampe (gw cuma liat notif mention dia dari email gw). gw sms ga dibalas.
sejak itu, gw lebih sering nge-mention dia, baik secara langsung maupun ga, dan nge-sms. lebih sering daripada biasanyalah. tapi yang ada abis itu gw malah di-block, untuk selamanya. so yeah, akhirnya gw merelakan dia untuk pergi. karena itu apa yang dia penginin.
yeah, I gave on you.
but at least, I've try to 'mempertahankan' you as my (best) friend.
I don't hate (maap, ga memenuhi permintaan lo supaya gw benci ama lo).
I was ... just angry.
It's you who choose to leave me. but whenever you ready to comeback for me, I'm here like I promised.
you're still my (best) friend and I still love you...
but at least, I've try to 'mempertahankan' you as my (best) friend.
I don't hate (maap, ga memenuhi permintaan lo supaya gw benci ama lo).
I was ... just angry.
It's you who choose to leave me. but whenever you ready to comeback for me, I'm here like I promised.
you're still my (best) friend and I still love you...
galon Aqua gw baru dateng. dan kamar gw masih berantakan. dari abis subuh udah nongkrong di atas tempat tidur sambil laptop-an. dan tugas gw ... jangan tanya. hah! jadi sekarang gw harus meninggalkan singgasana gw dan mulai bergerak. memulai sesuatu memang males.
treasure your friend and happy sunday :)
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